I have confirmed the show on May 15 at the Hi-Pointe with Porcelain Goddess and Valence.

And so we move forward.

P.A. cabinets have been obtained. They actually have sound coming out of them. It isn't all bad but I of course am picky as hell. We have decided to not mess with existing mixers that are or were already questionable. I'm not in the mood to deal with irritable equipment. I'm irritable enough. The simpler I make this setup for now the better off I'll be and everyone else won't have to deal with my pissy attitude. So. Vocals. check. Guitar. check. backing tracks. check. ..........fuck that's as far as I got. At any rate it looks like the Hi-Point show is a go. Everything else...I'm not even going there yet.

There is a certain reality that is closing in on me rather quickly. There are not enough me's to handle all the music endeavors that are circling my brain. In this time of need I totally support cloning. I need about 4 more of me. Wouldn't that be a mess?

I have ideas for StykFaktor, I have ideas for Visions Of Passion & Torture, at some point I want to do Zombie Rainbow Death Clowns again. I even want to do a Damned tribute band and have discussed it with some people. What the fuck would I do if it all came together? Chances are unlikely but the opportunity to at least attempt it is something I crave. But I digress.

I am attempting to get my shit together for a show we were asked to do in May at the Hi-Point. P.A. cabinets to rehearse with are finally purchased. I've put that off for far too long. Next addressing our failing sub mixer dilemma.

S.O.P Jeff....nothing but S.O.P

Just a random note to myself.

I really need to update some sections on this site. Some old links have to go and I need to clean up the news section and archive old stuff. Can't bring myself to remove any pics of Jeff just yet though. I suspect those will stay for some time to come. Sue me. Anyway, I'll get to it. Not like the "industry" is beating down my door anyway.

Been writing some demos and they are actually quite good. My problem is they just don't have that anger, spark, or emotion I'm looking for and I just don't think I'm going to get it unless I pickup the guitar. They sound too "synthpop" for the mood I have been in. That isn't a bad thing it's just that I want something with a little more depth to them. Let's face it some synthpop is just bland and I'm afraid I just don't feel like writing bland songs and trying to spark them up with deep lyrics and vocal effects. I want something with a little more feel and groove than the standard "thump thump". If that means I slow the tempos down and groove it out, then thats what I'll do. I know it isn't "what's in" but does it really matter? No, because I have to write what I feel and if it catches on then cool and if it don't it's not like I've damaged my momentum. It feels like I have none anyway. So fuck it. I picked up a guitar and started a new demo. I'm not dropping synths altogether, just basing the songs around guitar instead. We'll see what happens. Would help if I could play guitar better...lol.

Also I'm toying with the idea of moving Sasha to Bass when we play live instead of Drums. Just think it will look better plus she plays Bass very well. Besides we are down to three people (The reality of that I find rather depressing), and we need to fill up the stage more. That was the idea behind Visions as well. Keep people with real instruments up front. People need people with guitars to watch. They just do.