Nuthin' too exciting this weekend. Oh fuck!...the weekend is over. *sigh. Mostly hanging with the Z dude.

Dunno if were going to Requiem tomorrow or not.... Although it's free to get in I don't really have the cash to spare on drinks this week. So I dunno. I'm so sick of being broke. Anyway I'm sure whatever we end up doing it'll rock. So thats a good way to end a Monday I would guess.

I'm still having problems with my sinuses\ears..it's starting to piss me off. Better than it was but it getting in the way of sitting down and writing music. The desire is there but the annoyance of the problems leads me to procrastinate and feel unmotivated. There's always something. Anyway not much going on. So go away for a day or so....:)

K...So the Joan Jett track is uploading as I type this. Must have done a decent job 'cuz people at the club were commenting on it. So cool. That's done.

Speaking of the club...damn it was packed and with alot of people I've never even seen before. Could the St.Louis Goth scene actually be growing? Nah...dumb luck. Had perhaps the best time I've had at the club in a long time....and I wasn't even drunk. First we picked up Jessica. Damnit she rocks. We haven't seen her in awhile so it was cool. The topics of conversation in the car?...cramps as in female type stuff, boobs, how bad men suck, Jesus is now a corporation, inflatable churches, and having fun with handicaps. Don't even ask. I was the minority in most of these topics as you can imagine. Anyway got to the club and it started fairly mellow. Will Z seemed in good spirits. Even made $2 bucks off Spence for clove smokes. Hey I wasn't selling them he just offered. Jen was a bit tipsy but damn fun too. . Even got to feel Jessica's right boob. How that happened I'll never know. She just kind of layed it out since she was braggin about showing them to Bailey and I bitched she never offered them to me in all the time we've known her. Then BAM!...Jessica's boob. No offence sweety they're great but it was like touching my sister or something.





Will Z and I made plans to get together next weekend or the weekend after to start some...oh I dunno....band stuff. So we are getting back on the horse so to speak. Perhaps Jeff too if I can actually track his ass down. We'll get some stuff down..perhaps a few tracks and then bring everyone together after freaking Christmas. By the way I HATE Christmas. So I'm in good spirits despite "house" shit and I'm looking forward to doing some writing. As for now....off to veg on the couch.

Hope everyone had a good holiday.

*sigh

Allow me to say...you know what?...nevermind. I said it was coming and it is. I'll spare you all the 3 page rant for today.

Keep checking I may just unleash yet...

Love as always,

Styk

Doubt I'll get to update later so....

The Joan Jett track is finished. One more listen at the Den tonight to be sure. I hate that I was so late on getting it done but I have been sick off and on and singing was the last thing on my mind. But it's done. I'll send it off this weeked.

In other news...My plan is to get everyone together and begin writing. With holidays and all I know that may be a pain in the ass. So we'll keep it relaxed until after the first. As for a label to release anything new through...well thats up in the air. 14:59 records dissolved and the Compilations were picked up by Kiss My Asterisk records. So I presume we're still on the Goth\Industrial comp. I don't know whether to be happy about all of this or not. I really have very little faith in the "business" side of things. I can't tell you how many times over the years this and that was said or promised and it never materialized. it irritates me to no end. So while I would like to say we'll have a label to release a CD through, at this point we do not. We're up for grabs people. So if your interested I'm listening. Just don't feed me your BS. Either you are or you aren't. And no I am not upset with anyone over this...shit happens...I get it. Though it can be a blessing as well as a pain in the ass....I actually get it.

Still dealing with "Home Owners" issues....despite other things in life perking me up and making me "happy", those issues still remain and don't seem to be going away. It would be nice to wake up one day and not have to deal with it. great gods of Powerball can you hear me?

So we did the Requiem thing. And spare me the "I'm supporting this and that" routine by going or not going. It's a club..that is all. No different than us playing a show at a club. Doesn't mean we "support" persons or actions. End of speech....continue.

Have to admit...nice place. They need to relax on the drink prices a little though. Couches were a nice touch but as I have said before, if you want people to dance don't make it too comfortable for people to just sit. But hey whatever...it's fine.

Seen a few people we hadn't seen in awhile so that was cool. Got a promo CD from Shane of Trotski's Block. Good schtuff.

Talked with Ninaz for a bit...finally. Hopefully we're "ok" now. I mean I am a prick but not THAT bad.



Later...music stuff tomorrow...

K....so I think we are still going to attempt Requiem tonight. Despite what politics and general St.Louis Goth scene BS dictates...we're going. I have had more than my fill of all that bullshit so shovel it somewhere else. I'm just going to go...no reason or secret motivation....K?....ok.

Slowly I'm getting back into to the musical swing of things...mentally anyway. Though I tend to think why even bother occasionally...but you just nevermind....it's my issue not yours...:)

I will resume work on the cover track this week...needs some tweaking.

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OK...so I've been working on the Joan Jett cover despite not being completely recovered from the Black Plague. I still can't hear completely out of my left ear so I'm sure the song is sounding "great"....lol. At any rate I think I have most of it done. I did a few test copies and I think the levels are good so I'm gonna take it down to the club Wednesday to hear it on the P.A. system. Then it's off to the label. I'll probably run off a few copies for local DJ's should any want one. This is scheduled for a January release as I recall. I'll keep ya updated.

Next plan of action is to get all four of us together to write new material. That's a chore in itself...hehe. Will Z is getting Sonar 3...kick ass! I'm currently using Sonar 2.2 with a few minor glitches...S.O.P. (Standard Operating Procedure).

On to other matters - I have a meeting tomorrow with my former employer to discuss working for him again. I can't bear it much longer where I am. It just needs to happen. So wish me luck. Oh I need to check my Powerball numbers...perhaps I don't need the meeting after all..............................right.

Looking forward to next weekend already. I shouldn't 'cuz it's a plan...and plans and me well we don't work well together.
Later...

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Self-Lovin'	56.7% Explored the pleasures of the flesh	65.1%
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Well it seems Mp3.com was sold to CNET. None of the assets were purchased, only the domain name. You know what that means? All the hard work by independant artists is lost. Means nothing. All images, mp3's, cd's etc will be deleted and all the artists will have to start over at CNET. Yet another classic case of complicating our efforts. There are other resources for bands to host their music but it's becoming less and less conducive to the artists. With required Registration and Subscription fees and whatnot it's just becoming harder and harder for bands to get their music "out there" and for people to find it. Crap like this certainly adds a checkmark in the negative side of trying to "make it" in this business. Oh well...that's just the way it works these days. Like we can all do anything about it.

Forge on fellow musicians....forge on.

Well I'm still sick...Jesus H. Christ. What IS the deal?.....Am I missing something here?

I am tired to boot since we went to the Funny Bone with Will Z. to see Bob Zany. Weird assed looking guy that totally rocked. The kind of comedian that likes to interact with the crowd and have fun at their expense. I totally expected the guy to fuck with me...I just did, but I guess even though I was laughing and having a good time I had that "don't fuck with me" sort of look. I dunno. I'm told I have that look often being the people person I am and all. He was cool though.

Then off to The Den. Decent crowd. I fully expect Eric to not remember any of the things he did that we have pictures of. HAHAHA. God I love that man. I forgot to get Vince a CD which I had in the car. Next week I swear. Also forgot to get Jen her CD which I still need to burn. I'm a total lamer lately I know. Lame, Lame, Lame, Lame, Lame, Lame, Lame, Lame.
All in all a decent evening considering I felt mostly like shit.

And did I mention I'm getting WAY beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired? No? Odd since it's consuming my daily life that I didn't mention how I'm so tired of being sick. I mean really all I can think about is how to breathe and not have ear, neck, and throat pain. I mean I think I'm sick and I swear it's been like 10-12 days. I stopped counting. Thats how long I've been sick. So yeah....apparently I'm STILL sick.

Anyhoo....I need to finish that damn cover song but since I AM SICK....I can't do vocals. Making loose plans to hook up with at least Will Z. for new material too....so like I'm trying....*sigh

peace.

Today was perhaps the single biggest cluster fuck I have ever experienced at any place I have ever worked. If these "new" people had any clue they would be dangerous. I absolutely can't take it anymore. It has gotten to the point it's consuming my life...last time I checked it was MY life. So it's time to take back control of MY life. I have questions and I want answers and if they don't satisfy me, they can consider themselves fucked.

In other words...Adios muthafuckas...

Christ I'm in such a foul mood....

I'll be back when I'm not throwing my BS your way people....later.

Got some more pics from the Complex show from Todd Davis of Todd Davis Photography. Hell I didn't even know he was at the show, but kick ass! I don't have a link for him yet but when I get one you should visit him. Ultra cool guy and very supportive of "the scene". So the new pics have been added...enjoy.

P.S If this fucking cold doesn't leave soon I'm going to jump in the river...'cuz this just sucks.

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One crushing blow after another it seems since..I don't know months now. Feelings lately due to work. It's seems I am more expendable than I suspected. It's coming. But not in that "Your Fired" kind of way. More like I will make you so miserable you want to leave at the point we think we can get by without you kind of way. Oh it's been fun. I am going between utter pissed off anger, to vengeance, to at times an over whelming sense of failure and feeling like a throw away in almost every aspect of my life. aaargh...

So allow me to vent....Fuck You.

Thanx...

If this is the bottom then I guess it's up from here...woohoo....otherwise I am seriously fucked because I am finding very little desire to even fight....my total sense of apathy is winning big time....go me.

Got some new photos up finally...now 3...yes 3 galleries to toy with....so what are you waiting for?

StykFaktor should now be on your desktop to enjoy everyday....;)

Nuthin' but love...

K...so ok day. Did a little tweaking on the Joan Jett cover. Was going to cut up the tree that fell down in our back yard but since I don't have a chainsaw and couldn't find anyone to borrow one from. Well I didn't. I was going to rent one but you need a credit card and we cut all of ours up..for good reason. Oh well I'll figure something out. Getting ready to go out to the Funny Bone Comedy Club tonight I had a weird moment when I looked in the mirror right before I shaved and saw my Dad. Not actually saw HIM, but more like him in ME. In other words most days I don't notice I look like him alot, but today it was like BAM there it is. At any rate it weirded me out for a few minutes. Got me to thinking about him today abit too. Funny how I can never remember the year or the date he died. I mean I have to actually look up the info in the obituary I have saved. I don't get that. It was such a bizarre time in my life. A time I knew was coming at the time...I expected it yet it was truly heartbreaking nonetheless. Anyway since I am thinking about him today allow me to say R.I.P. Dad...11-02-96...age 48.



Later...

I am actually so tired I can't sleep. Christ I hate that. Anyway Halloween turned out rather well this year. Got to dress up the Z-meister as a vampire and do some serious trick or treating. He was in a good mood and proved to be rather entertaining and fun. He had fun...we had fun. Rock.


Hey check this out....random surfing found this little treasure...lol ...Andrew Eldritch - Separated At Birth

Oh yeah band related stuff...hehe....K so I have an itty bitty cold but after it clears up the first order of businees is finishing the cover song for a metal tribute album I agreed to do. The sequences are done but I never got to the vocals. I may ask Sasha to work on those with me as well. The track is a Joan Jett song...to be exact it's "Do You Wanna Touch..Oh Yeah". I couldn't even begin to address why I chose that song. I guess I just wanted to do something light and fun...I just can't do a Judas Priest song and approach it with any seriousness. I liked Judas Priest back in the day...but not enough to make a Goth\Synthpop cover out of any of it. Anyway that's the first thing. Then on to NEW material with the full band. Also I did state no more shows this year and I mean it. However I am considering ONE that would be from a slightly different approach. Thats all I'll say for now...Jeff and I have talked about it...whether or not it will "work" remains to be seen.

Guess I'll try sleep again....Pfft

Sweet Dreams all....