Ever make a plan, goal, try to reach for a dream, or even just something you have always wanted
to do before you left this mortal coil and got ahold of it just for a second?...and then BAM! it was
gone..That just recently happened.....I keep going over it in my head trying to think if there
was another way it could have been handled. I have come up with more than one answer. That doesn't
help obviously. Perhaps it all happened to fast and was just bad timing and that may have something
to do with how it ended. But then again it may not have mattered. I still keep wondering if it will ever happen
again...could be wishful thinking..denial...yet I still get the feeling another chance is quietly waiting..
Silly to dwell I suppose...It's kinda like a rollercoaster...for a brief moment there is nothing more exciting
than the ride..and when it's over you can't wait to get back in line...

Unless of course you don't like rollercoasters..but I think you get the analogy..:)
Never the less I feel like I'm back in line...and I'm not sure if the rollercoaster is coming back...*sigh*

Ok..so I was working on this blog and it got all screwed up..so I deleted it and
started over....yay...needless to say I lost all previous entries....whatever...
It's not like anyone read this shit anyway.....and so we begin ...again.......


Been awhile........been busy...sort of...screwed up my eye for a couple weeks in an
accident at work. That was NOT cool...everything is ok though....Have a lot of
Web Design stuff to get to for work..I just can't seem to sit my ass down and DO it..
My birthday is coming up on the 19th...I am NOT handling this one very well, and I
don't know why. I have always looked and felt younger than I actually am..right up
until this year...Friend keeps telling me it's all in my mind..and I know that already..
but for some fucking reason I can't get passed it.

Personal life has been stressful to say the least. Some good and some bad..
without going into details..let's just say..

I don't regret anything that happened...of course I wish some things had gone
differently..I would be lying if I didn't think that..In the end..friendship is what
really matters and I think everyone involved is making an effort to make sure
that the friendship stays intact..and for that I am thankful..The experience itself
was something I will never forget...so to those friends involved ...I say thank you..